Sunday, December 21, 2014

Merry Christmas 2014



I’m thinking of my sister and her family who will face the first Christmas without my brother-in-law. Like many people who experience a deep loss, they find it hard to truly celebrate the season. It becomes more of a ritual of going through the motions, but still trying to hold on to the goodness of generosity, compassion and caring. Grief just has a way of eroding joy.

The first year after losing my husband eight years ago was extremely difficult, not that it’s a piece cake now, so to speak. But since his passing was in late September, I was still somewhat in shock of the loss when Christmas rolled around. The one thing I discovered to be most helpful was to continue some of the traditions and some of the good things we did together. It was a way to honor him, and it made him feel a little closer, too.

I also realized that, while the void was something I couldn’t fill, I needed to still celebrate Christ’s birth. After all, it was the beginning of the greatest gift I would and could ever receive, mostly because it gave me hope that I would see Steve again. I also found that doing things for others and making their life a little better let me focus on something besides myself and my devastation.

When such losses occur, it’s important to give oneself permission to begin some new traditions, or just change how things are done for that year. For me, at my sons’ urging, it meant still hosting our family’s Christmas Eve open house to include other family and friends, but also an annual trip following Christmas Day.

My oldest son was unmarried at the time and always had the week off between Christmas and New Year’s, so it became a new tradition for us to get away for about four days. We did that for five years until he married. And now after eight years, I no longer need to have the after-Christmas trip to look forward to and distract me from my loss.

If you know someone who is experiencing a great loss this year, please try to understand how they choose to handle celebrations. In time, they will acclimate to the difference, even though it might never be the same for them. Sometimes grief takes time, and there is a learning curve to accept what one cannot change. But to everyone in that transition and to everyone else, I still wish you a Merry Christmas with peace and blessings, and a much Happier New Year.

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